Monday, December 3, 2012

Engaging in Immersion



The team -- getting ready to launch into our families!

The end of the three-month integration period has arrived. Friday will bring our departure into families in various towns and villages. We’ve been placed by two’s into each area. This is so that we will not be completely isolated; yet, there will be enough space between us to cause us to embrace our new environments. It won’t be without some challenges, awkwardness, and thoughts like: “What am I doing here? What should I be doing in the family?” … But at the same time there will be plenty of happiness, receiving a new family. I am being placed in Niakaramandougou, a small town north of Bouake, two hours by bus. Lina is also going to live there. We’ll be in separate families, but the same church family. So, I imagine that we’ll see one another at least a few times a week.

The church family in Niakara, standing in their new church building

The old church building in Niakara -- isn't it sweet?

Unfortunately I don’t have time to give more details about this upcoming change. But, know that I am very excited about this next step into a family. I would appreciate your prayers as I go through this transition. The next time I have internet will probably be the first week of January, when I come back to Bouake for a week of rest and processing with the rest of the team. Looking forward to giving updates at that point!

Until then, I hope you have a very Merry Christmas!!!

As I said in an email update to some of you, I thank God for each and every one of you, who make it possible for me to be here. I pray that you would experience God’s peace this season, and that the things of this world would look shallow in comparison to the deep treasure we have in Christ.

Friday Night Life



This past Friday, Rod took the girls – and only the girls – out to the bush to shoot guns and star gaze. Yes, it’s true. We left around 5 PM in the Landcruiser, Rod in the driver’s seat and ten girls packed in everywhere else. Dinner stayed warm and somewhat untouched along the route – though the smell of rice and curry made us all hungry. A hefty telescope, two shotguns, and plastic mats were strapped onto the roof. We arrived out by this incredible rock quarry just before dark. But, that didn’t stop Rod from loading the shotgun and allowing all of us girls to take a couple of shots. Our target was a large rock in the lake. Life-threatening? Maybe. But by some miracle, no animals, people, or any other living species were injured in the process.


Meanwhile, Tricia began making tea and Jess got the meal together. We had two pots, and therefore two groups (one around each pot), and we ate communally. Aside from our choice to use spoons, we were close in form to eating like Ivorians often eat (see photo below). We were in the bush, away from the city, under a blanket of stars. Therefore, we relied on a few flashlights to see our food and all the translucent bugs that felt like eating curry too. But it turned out they’d stick to the rice and we ended up eating them, accidentally. Fresh pineapple, peanuts, onions, bell peppers, and other condiments trounced any bug flavor. We all ate our fill and then some.


Rod established the telescope on a more or less flat piece of rock and set the scope first on Jupiter. We saw the beautiful planet with two stripes and four of her moons. Then we moved up in the sky to Plateaus and found a magnificent view of star upon star. To the naked eye Plateaus appeared to be but a handful of stars. Through the telescope, however, there were tens if not hundreds in view. Slowly, mister moon in all his fullness strolled into the night sky. I could have stayed on that rock all night, questioning the moon.

“The heavens declare the glory of God and the skies proclaim His handiwork…night to night reveals knowledge…” Psalm 19:1

So yes, it was a lovely evening. All of us girls enjoyed feeling a bit “dangerous” with guns (Jess’ new phrase is “I am dangerous!”). We also felt completely small and humbled by the night sky.

On our way back, I rode on the roof of the Landcruiser with Lina, Carina, and the telescope. We dodged so many branches and occasionally got whipped by small ones that seemed to jump out of nowhere. But along the way also we managed to dream up a future voyage around Europe, and then maybe the U.S. too. Someday down the road, maybe I’ll get to travel around with my sweet German friends.

Okay, the night didn’t end there. We arrived home at 10ish and braced ourselves for a surprise. You see, a couple of weeks ago the girls pranked the boys while they were out of town, and we knew they had been planning revenge. (I don’t feel far removed from college!) When we walked into the living room, the guys were hanging out as “normal”. We knew better than that. We dropped off the bags and pots we carried in and walked down the girls’ corridor, only to see a giant snake body coming out of our bathroom. Gross!! But it was completely still and it didn’t take us long to determine that the thing was dead. We walked toward it with squeals and a bit of fright. Then the boys came running down the hall and grabbed the snake’s body, only to swing it back and forth at us. We all turned around and ran. It turned out to be a black cobra, probably 2 meters in length. It had been found and killed on campus that afternoon. (And since then, two others just like it have been killed – so that’s three consecutive days in a row!)

We could deal with the dead snake. Our bedroom doors were still locked (as we had left them) and we breathed a sigh of relief. The guys couldn’t touch our rooms…. or could they? Carina opened our door and screamed. It looked like a storm had gone through there. Our mattresses were stolen, our bed frames stood on their ends, and clothes and other things were just everywhere. The guys had outsmarted us and found a master key to all the rooms. They had all kinds of fun disarranging everything. It was like a broken puzzle that needed to be put back together. Even our shower curtains were missing, and our toilet paper too! Oh my, what a disaster. As you can imagine, there were plenty of laughs and screams. They guys had gotten us back – and they did a good job.

That night we slept without our mattresses, but instead on couch cushions. As Carina and I finally crawled into bed at about midnight in our somewhat put-back-together room, we laughed about everything that happened that night. We were wired. Since all the boys were asleep, we snuck down their hallway and into their bathroom with the intention of getting them back. But they guys had prepared to be repaid by hiding all of their toiletries in their bedrooms. We ended up using an old thing of toothpaste to write, “watch out” on their mirror. Nothing has happened yet in the area of payback, but we all know that the prank war has officially begun…


Saturday, November 10, 2012

Neem: The Toothbrush Tree


This morning the team and I did a little trekking. We marched through tall grasses, sloshed through soggy rice fields, crossed a stream on a creaky footbridge, and rested in the shade of a mango tree. Rod took us on this hike through the bush to give us a lesson in West African trees and birds. There’s no better classroom for this kind of lesson than outside, making the topic tangible. 

I just want to say one thing: God’s creation is phenomenal. He is Artists of artists, Scientists of scientists, and Gardener of gardeners. There are unbelievable properties to many different plants and trees around here, and Ivorians have clearly tapped into these resources. I know that I’ve barely scratched the surface in learning about how different trees are used here. But, what I know already excites the nature-loving, natural-remedy-providing side of me. 

The Neem tree is used for teeth cleaning; just cut off a little twig and chew on it for a bit. (I checked and there’s actually neem in my natural toothpaste! It’s good stuff.) There are countless mango, coconut, avocado, citrus, and cashew trees around here too. They’re growing everywhere – but most of them flourish during the dry season. (I can hardly wait!) The Baobab tree is a symbol of Africa. It is one of the hardiest, most resilient trees around here. Hack away at it and it’ll survive, heal, and keep growing. There are numerous palm trees as well. One of my favorite sauces to eat with rice is made with fresh-pressed palm oil. Many other leaves, roots, and barks are harvested for cooking. The Moringa tree has leaves that are dried out then crushed up into a powder, taken for it’s herbal and medicinal properties. 

Knowing the plants and trees is important for life here in Cote d’Ivoire. My learning has just begun! 

The Coulibalys


9 family members + 1 new house + 1 foreign guest = One Happy Family. 

Returning to L’Ecole Baptist after a week-long stay with an Ivorian family was bitter-sweet. I didn’t want to say good-bye to the family, but I was excited to see my teammates and trade stories about our new experiences. My host-dad and sister, Lea, dropped me off with a jar of pure honey, a new pagne, and my backpack full of dirty clothes. The honey and pagne were gifts from them. Gifts of grace; I certainly didn’t think I deserved them. They were the ones who blessed me so much. They opened up their home, their lives, and their hearts to me, a stranger. They were patient with me as I fumbled through French. They were generous toward me and fed me like a queen. They were caring in every sense of the word. And yet, they were the ones giving me gifts at my departure. This past week was an initial stay with an Ivorian family, giving me a preview or foretaste of what is to come for nine full months! And, I am all the more excited about what lies ahead.

A few words to describe life at the Coulibaly’s…togetherness, hard work, communal living, laughter, delicious food, simple joy, in-the-moment-living.

There were ten people under the roof of one house when I was there. Five of us girls shared one bedroom, three boys another, and our parents in another. I slept under a green mosquito net on a bed with Simon, my sister who is just one year older than me. The other three girls, Lea (18), Yira (14), and Helen (14) sprawled out on floor mats. The boys were younger. Emmanual (11), David (8) and Onj (4) were typical little guys, who loved to wrestle, climb trees, eat as much as they could, and play with sticks and toy guns. Little Onj was my buddy. He was home throughout the day with mom, Simon, and me when the rest of the family was at work or school. He called me tanti and would sit on my lap to snuggle every chance he could. When he wasn’t sleepy and snuggly, he’d be showing off and acted like a little comedian. His knew how to get his way with humor, “innocence,” or a big smile. Mom would threaten to punish him when he disobeyed, but rarely followed through with it. His very first day of school – ever – was on my last day with the family. So, I got to see him off with a brand new bear backpack and shiny water bottle. He couldn’t have been more thrilled. Mom felt the same.

Most of my day was spent sitting on a little stool in the outdoor “kitchen,” which is essentially made up of two small charcoal ovens and several metal pots. For women in Cote d’Ivoire, the majority of their time is spent preparing meals. Everything is made from scratch. My sister Simon was also home throughout the day. It was a rare moment that I wasn’t with her. We cut vegetables, stirred rice, and mixed a combination of things into the different sauces. She taught me how to make a variety of typical meals, such as rice with a peanut sauce, fried plantains with eggplant sauce, and attieke with smoked fish. Fish was the meat of choice in my family, so I had it in nearly every meal, including a few breakfasts. It was usually mixed into the sauces, served over rice. And, for my first couple of meals, I also had crab! It was my first experience eating the entire crab, shell, legs, and all. Once I got over the initial apprehension, it was delectable.

My host dad teaches at a school that is equivalent to a middle school in the States. He’s a math teacher there. I was able to shadow him at school one day and sit in the back of his class. All the students got a kick out of having a white girl sit in their class. It was very similar to class in the States. But the cement floors, simple tables, green chalkboard, and hot outdoor air distinguished it a bit.

My notebook and pen became my greatest aid throughout the week, as French bombarded me! Without writing words down they would flee my mind just seconds later. So I’d ask my family to speak slowly and often spell things out for me. They were patient and kind. By God’s grace, I was able to communicate the basics throughout the week.

Most importantly, I learned that I don’t have to be fluent in French to build authentic relationships with Ivorians. It’s more a matter of simply being together and offering a helping hand. It’s a matter of putting aside my personal comforts and individualism and joining the routine of my family. It’s a matter of sitting and listening and smiling and being. The Coulibaly’s cared for me and showed me undeserved hospitality. The demonstrated love towards me, because they, too, know the deep love of God. My heart overflowed with joy when the family read from the Bible together Friday evening. Jesus is their Savoir, too. While there are many things that may differentiate us because of our cultures and languages and experiences, one thing remains the same: we are all sinners saved by grace through our faith in Jesus Christ. That, my friends, is all that really matters.



Saturday, October 27, 2012

One Week, Ivorian Style

Quick update: All is well with me here in Cote d'Ivoire. Thank you for your prayers, encouragement, and the love that you've sent my way. I am always encouraged to hear from friends and family back at home. 

From November 1st through the 8th, I'll be living with an Ivorian family! This week-long stay is part of integration. It'll give me a taste of life in a family here before I move into one for 9 months. Oh, I am so excited about these adventures ahead. I will write more soon.

(Lately I've been quite tired by the increase in French hearing and speaking. My team only speaks French at our meal times now, among many other times throughout the day. Let's just say that I'm mentally and physically wiped out by the end of the day! But it's the kind of tired that is nice and satisfying. That being said, I will try to make more time for writing updates. So much to be said!)



Saturday, October 20, 2012

Praises and Requests


Praises and Thanksgivings:
  • Team/Community – I am so thankful for my team. Each one of us has a very different background, but Christ unites us together! It is a huge blessing to have other Americans, Germans, and Ivorians living together in community. It’s sometimes challenging to learn and love through our differences, but it is also exciting and rewarding.
  • Leadership/Mentorship – God’s graciously given me wonderful leaders who have had years of experience on the missions field, love young adults, and treasure Jesus above everything else.
  • Ivorian culture – I thoroughly enjoy the people and way of life here in Cote d’Ivoire. I can hardly wait to live with a host family in another month or two.

Prayer Requests:
  • Language learning – Learning conversational French is one of my top priorities right now so that I can start communicating more freely with Ivorians. Pray specifically that I would overcome all fear and discomfort of speaking the little French that I know, so that I can learn through my mistakes.
  • Strength/Rest/Health – With all the stress of learning a new language and culture, I easily become tired—mentally and physically. Pray that my strength would come from the Lord and that He would sustain my physical health.
  • Friendships – Please continue to pray for authentic friendships to develop. I am hoping for a close friend or two for mutual understanding and encouragement.



Monday, October 8, 2012

Integration


How can it be that a month has come and gone like the clouds on a gusty afternoon? I don’t know, exactly. Time is that way. A bit hard to understand and impossible to hold down. The way time flows here in Cote d’Ivoire is different from the flow it takes on in the States. There’s less rushing and panting; less stiffness. Mornings start early, often before sunrise. Night falls around the same time every evening, and dinner is eaten after the sun goes down at 19:00 o’clock – or 7:00 PM. Our schedule on campus is less African than it is western. The reason for this is that we have seminars and classes that must happen every day. And, with 20 or so people involved, we need to stick to the clock or else nothing would happen.

[Quick summary of our schedule, Monday-Friday]
  • 8 am – Bible study and/or worship as a team
  • 9 am – French class with Timothee
  • 10 am – Seminar (topics examples: cultural adjustment, common illnesses & treatments, history of Cote d’Ivoire)
  • 12 pm – Lunch
  • 1 pm – Rest
  • 2:30 pm – French practice
  • 4:30 pm – Free time – Sleep, journal, run, card games, soccer, snack, errands in town
  • 7 pm –Dinner
  • 8 pm – Team sharing
  • 10 pm – Sleep! 

We’re well into our integration period of the year here in Cote d’Ivoire. It’ll probably go  through Thanksgiving time. So, come early December, when Christmas songs, snowflakes, and hot cocoa are prevalent around my Wisconsin home, it is likely that I will be moving into a new home here, gearing up for the hottest time of the year.

[A few highlights from “integration” so far] 
  • This past week we heard from an Ivorian nurse. We had “in depth” discussions about diarrhea, parasites, snake bites, cholera, hygiene, and malaria-carrying female mosquitos, among other funny/scary/important topics related to our bodies.
  • Trekking through muddy, red clay & dense, tall grass with the Landcruisers on an afternoon journey to a hidden rock quarry. Never before has riding on top of a massive vehicle been more thrilling than the Titan coaster at Six Flags. We spent the evening around a bonfire out on the quarry. The moon was full. We ate spicey beef/onion sandwhiches cooked over the fire (thanks to Rod!), learned about Baobab trees (a symbol of Africa), and shared stories and laughter.
  • Je vais au ville” – Going to the city: watching, listening, smelling, & tasting life here. Babies wrapped snuggly around their mother’s back with a colorful panye. Grilled bananas sold street-side, wrapped in recycled newspaper, exchanged for 50 francs (10 cents). Six laughing children standing in a line, holding hands as they wait to cross a busy street. Well-aware that they don’t have the right-of-way, they wait for several minutes before shuffling to the middle of the street, then again to the other side. 

Riding a Bike


{Preface: Okay – this may be a really bad idea. Forgive me, all of you writers out there reading this. I’ve decided to post this little, um, poem (if that’s what you call it), that I scratched down yesterday. There are no rules to writing, right? I will probably look back (maybe even tomorrow) and laugh (or crinkle my nose) at this. But hey, the words are true.}


Riding a bike

clears my mind
though my legs work
harder than on my bike back
home. where things feel simpler
but actually aren’t
most of the time.
is it strange how heavy breathing and
honking horns,
a sweating forehead and
squinting eyes
are all together restful? no,

it’s the mind that needs
a break from the trying
and toiling and tinkering
so that it can finally
think
about the things that matter.
like the fact that
God is real;
He is Creator;
Savior;
the Name above names.

colors are bright on
people but dull on the
ground.
the sky is blue at times, and at others
clothed in gray,
carrying water
for the thirsty plants under
its sinking weight.
people look and stare, or smile
or question or laugh
at the toubabou

riding a bike
past their home where they
cook rice and sauce.
or past their field
where they bend from the waist
and pick, pull, pile, and plant
as they have done for
generations past.
or past the little ones,
walking home from school
with happiness or sadness
displayed without a veil.

so much to look at,
so much to ponder but not
without prayer.
because the One who is
with me
knows not only me and
speaks not only my language.
He knows those i see and
He speaks
their language too
and hears their prayers if they
pray in Jesus’ name,
but most of them don’t

because they haven’t been told
of this One who
died for them and seeks to
cover them in a
righteous gown
that’s more beautiful
than the loveliest cloth
they can find.
it is simple, this Gift.
and free.
all that is needed is faith
because Jesus
finished the work and seeks to
save
the lost.

there is a need
for messengers who will
love and live and labor
for and with and among
the people of
Cote d’Ivoire.
there is a need
for relationships to form
and transformation to happen
in Jesus’ name.
i pray for God’s glory
to come. Be present
in the hearts of those
i pass while
riding a bike.




            

Sunday, September 23, 2012

"Benkadi" -- Together


My first week in Bouake was a bundle of paradoxes. My senses have come alive!

Exhausting and invigorating. Foreign, yet familiar. Vivid emotions, but also uncertain at times.

Since I’ve had so many new experiences this week, I’ve tried to break down the categories below to summarize just a few of them and give you a taste of life in Cote d’Ivoire up to this point…

New Home—

Many of you may know that I’m living on a beautiful campus in Bouake. It used to be an international school for missionary kids. Basically, it’s about 20 acres of green grass, blooming flowers, big trees, and many small houses, dormitories, and classroom-like buildings. In some ways it reminds me of my college campus – Northwestern College – which is a beautiful haven. Yet this place is definitely African in nature and style. The campus here was evacuated over 10 years ago when a civil war started in Cote d’Ivoire. French soldiers lived here during the war, but since then it was given to Journey Corps (aka “Benkadi” – a local word meaning “community” or “together”). Journey Corps rents out some of the houses and dorms to Ivorian families and Ivorian medical students, but a few of the buildings are for our use. I have been delighted to have a safe place to run and play sports. There’s a grassy field with a “track” and even run down tennis and basketball courts. Getting outside to be active and move a bit has helped energize me and clear my mind after hours of French practice!

New Friends—

Two missionary couples (Rod and Angelika – been in Cote d’Ivoire for years. Phil and Mimi – missionaries in Rwanda for 13 years; came here in April). Five Germans arrived when we did (two guys and three girls – all just finished high school). Four new Americans (including myself). One French man (Benjamin—who is doing a project with an unreached people group in a village north of Bouake). Six American Journeyers who have been here for over a year already; a few of them helping with our integration.

It’s a great group of people. Truly. They are a ton of fun! I’ve heard more French and German this past week than ever before in my life. We’re learning how to work together, communicate together, eat together, and live together.

God's Creation—

There are also so many incredible flowers and tropical plants and trees. Acacia has become my favorite, especially the giant ones. I love sitting under them. It’s the end of rainy season here. There’s been a downpour of rain nearly every afternoon, and I don’t think I’ve ever seen storm clouds as beautiful as the ones that blow in here.  The rain is powerful. There are fruit-bearing trees everywhere; grapefruit and lemon trees grow right outside my bedroom window. The avocados and mangos aren’t quite in season, but apparently come February or March, there are too many to eat! I don’t think I’ll mind a bit J

New Transportation—

Of all the new modes for getting around, my favorite is the moto taxi. It costs less than a dollar to ride on the back of a motorcycle from the market place to campus—about 4 miles. The tricky part of the moto is getting on in a skirt. Or maybe it’s straddling the cycle without gripping the driver (hands off!). Or, maybe it’s not falling off the back seat when three people are on it. I got plenty of laughs and smiles from Ivorians watching the white girl try to ride a moto for the first time.

All in all, I give thanks and praise to God for this past week! It has been a magnificent start to this new journey, this new year. May He receive all glory for that is happening here -- in my life, in the team, in the local churches, in the country of Cote d'Ivoire as a whole. 

Please continue to pray. Pray for French learning so that relationships can be built. And the relationships are all about Jesus -- seeing him transforms lives by what he has done for us on the cross. 

Thank you for partnering with me!

Love,
Emily



Friday, September 14, 2012

Abijan, Cote d'Ivoire


Speed Scrabble

Pretty Chair

Our arrival into Cote d'Ivoire was smooth. Immigration and customs were unusually easy to navigate, and our luggage all arrived on time. I'm so thankful to be here and already sense that I'm going to love this place. Today was a day of rest. My team--Rebecca, Haylie, Eric & myself--along with Rod (long time missionary; Ivorian at heart),  Devin & Tricia (Journeyer's who are helping us integrate), enjoyed chatting, eating, resting, napping, game-playing, and more chatting. I think we've already tasted a bit of the Ivorian view of time and relationships. Relationships first, schedules second. Lunch lasted three hours but felt like one. And, I took not just one, but two naps today.  :)


Guest House

Garage Treasures

Monday, September 3, 2012

Jehovah Jireh


My visa has arrived -- I'm officially welcome in the country of Cote d'Ivoire. God has been gracious to bring me to this point... closing in on a week or so left in the States. He is Jehovah Jireh -- Provider. Here are just a few things I'm thankful to Him for...

  • A wonderful partnership team -- so many people who have decided to join me in prayer and finances, partnering in God's ministry in Cote d'Ivoire for the sake of the Gospel. 
  • My financial needs are nearly met. Just a few % away from being fully supported.
  • Many, many sweet and some tearful good-byes last week in Minneapolis, my home for the past 3 years.
  • Walks with the Lord, reflecting on His faithfulness day by day. 
  • Great time with the family in creation this past weekend -- a day in Door County and a day at Point Beach State Park.
  • Chocolate ice cream. 



Saturday, August 25, 2012

Final Preparations

Preparing for a year away is an exciting adventure, but wow, it's also a challenge! The "to-do" and "to-buy" lists seem unending, but I believe everything will get done in time. (The hardest part might be packing a year's supply of everything in 1-2 suitcases. I guess the key word is "simplicity," right?!) Little by little, I'm feeling more ready for take-off.

I thank God for a wonderful summer. He allowed me to see many dear friends and most of my extended family in Texas and Michigan. I am blessed to have so many loving, supportive, prayerful, and caring individuals in my life. Thank you for spending time to learn about the calling God has placed on my heart to go to Cote d'Ivoire. Sharing this journey and partnering with you in this ministry is a gift from God. 

If you would like to partner with me financially and haven't yet, please do! You're giving to God's work in Cote d'Ivoire by helping me get there. 75% of my financial needs are in... so just 25% to go. Click here to give online with a credit or debit card. If you'd prefer to write a check, reply to this email and I'll send you info about how to do that.

Once I'm over in Cote d'Ivoire -- which will be September 13th, Lord-willing -- I'll be updating my blog on a regular basis with stories and photos. Be sure to follow along!

Au revoir for now!




Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Take-Off: September 12th

The flights have been purchased and time is ticking. My team (April, Eric, Haylei, Shasta, Rebecca) and I are prayerfully and faithfully moving forward with this launch date of September 12th. And I couldn't be more excited about it!

Would you please pray about joining me in seeing God glorified in Cote d'Ivoire? I would love your partnership. In order to actually take off on September 12th, I need more financial support from others...about $8,000.

Every gift of $20, $50, $100, or $1000 is significant. In other words, no amount is too small. Click here to learn more and find the place to give online.

God is faithful. He is faithful to Himself and the glory of His name. His mission in the world is to glorify Himself among the nations. {And, that is the most loving Mission He could have--because His glory is our joy!}

Psalm 66

66 bShout for joy to God, all the earth;
sing the glory of his name;
cgive to him glorious praise!
Say to God, dHow awesome are your deeds!
So great is your power that your enemies ecome cringing to you.
fAll the earth worships you
and sings praises to you;
they sing praises to your name.” Selah

gCome and see what God has done:
dhe is awesome in his deeds toward the children of man.
He hturned the sea into dry land;
they ipassed through the river on foot.
There did we rejoice in him,
who rules by his might forever,
whose jeyes keep watch on the nations—
let not the rebellious exalt themselves. Selah

Bless our God, O peoples;
let the sound of his praise be heard,
who has kept our soul among the living
and khas not let our feet slip.
10 For you, O God, have ltested us;
you have tried us as silver is tried.
11 You brought us into mthe net;
you laid a crushing burden on our backs;
12 you let men nride over our heads;
we went through fire and through owater;
yet you have brought us out to a place of abundance.

13 I will come into your house with burnt offerings;
I will pperform my vows to you,
14 that which my lips uttered
and my mouth promised qwhen I was in trouble.
15 I will offer to you burnt offerings of fattened animals,
with the smoke of the sacrifice of rams;
I will make an offering of bulls and goats. Selah

16 rCome and hear, all you who fear God,
and I will tell what he has done for my soul.
17 I cried to him with my mouth,
and high praise was on1 my tongue.2
18 If I had scherished iniquity in my heart,
tthe Lord would not have listened.
19 But truly uGod has listened;
he has attended to the voice of my prayer.

20 Blessed be God,
because he has not rejected my prayer
or removed his steadfast love from me!